contentment

written around ten earlier this evening:


I just wish 
that I could get this
loveliness
that lasts so rarely
for but a moment
to be the slightest bit less


ephemeral.




Just nicotine, contentement gone in a flash


Now, two am:


Nicotine
Ketamine
Goodness without immediate
end.
Something almost like
happiness.
Deep breaths,
loveliness
that I actually have time to 
appreciate.
Thank you chemistry.
I'll probably resent you when I come 
down.